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I am at a loss for words and feelings right now. Someone get me out of all of this.
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| LOVEING MY LIFE FOR REAL |
[10 Dec 2008|12:27am] |
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My life is so perfect even with the downfalls.
I have the most wonderful boyfriend in the entire world. \\
I am going to kinda write him a note now even though he will probably never read it...
Dear Jere,
I know I am absolutely in love with you. Every minute with you makes me smile. We never fight and our slight arguments are just funny. You take care of me in every way, and I hope I do the same for you. No matter what happens financially I will be there for you. Dropping out of college doesn't matter I now understand how my mom felt when my dad didn't go and she was still in love with him. I'm terrified about my future but I hope that no matter what I can always count on you to be there for me, and I'm totally excited about OUR possible future. No matter what happens I will always love you.
Love,
Your woman:)
Anyway. Hope that wasn't completely ridiculous.... My roommate drives me crazy. She has kinda turned into a slut and just wants to tell me every conversation she has with every guy she comes in contact with. She is also very dirty and I can't stand being in my apartment because I always have to clean.
My parents are doing well. My mom calls me all the time to talk and check in. I kinda miss them. I miss my dad the most it seems like I never got to really talk to him at home but just hanging out watching TV was our thing and now anytime I'm home its not for more that a few hours and there just isn't any bond idk I miss what we had. I'm getting kinda sad writing this actually. My mom, well I can say I miss her but not her talks.... James I really do miss but he has matured and won't really talk to me about anything at all even if I go and hang out with him for a day or so.
I really hope that if things keep going this well that in a year I will be this happy, doing a little bit better in school, have a better relationship with my family, have a better paying job, and will be living Jere with a kitten, because I really just want a kitten:)\
I'm sorry this was so long I just kinda miss writing. I need to get back to smoking this green and studying for my finals hahaha
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[08 Sep 2008|11:54am] |
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Life is very interesting.
I loved this past week off, thank you Gustav!
If you would like to know whats going on in my life give me a call.
What I can is I have a new apartment, a new boyfriend, a new semester of classes, a new group of friends and a group of people I know would kill for me and I would do the same.
Some how I think I finally got lucky.
P.S. I'm ready for IKE!!!
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[05 Jun 2008|12:51am] |
Being sick is just no fun. But at least it's before I move out.... and yes in 8 days I will be living on my own in a wonderful apartment with Sara Ann.
Nothing else to new going on in my life. I love the people I've met in college. I can't imagine how different my life would be without meeting them and the people I've met from Alexandria. I really hope those boys move down here soon.
My birthday is also in 18 days and there will be a killer party at my place so if you don't hear from me and want to come call because with two jobs and moving out I'm going to be completely busy.
I love you all. Hope everyone who still visits lj is doing great :]
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[25 Apr 2008|04:30am] |
there are some thing and some people i miss. but there are also some things and some people i look forward to in the future.
if you feel me, lets hang out.
parents out of town for the weekend, give me a call!
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[05 Apr 2008|03:06am] |
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I spend way to much time thinking about the past....
And I've picked up some very bad habits.
I could say I'm enjoying college, but I just need someone or something to look forward to. Right now there is nothing except living day to day hoping I can stay somewhat happy, I can't believe I let a boy get to me this much... but that's how things go.
Ok I'm lying. I'm not happy but I can fake it like a mother fucker.
I hate feeling like this. Please give me something to look forward to!
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[20 Mar 2008|12:41am] |
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I'm disappearing for a few days. I'm hoping everything turns out perfectly. If not, maybe I won't remember it by the time I get home!?!
<33
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| WTF?!?!?!? |
[11 Feb 2008|01:05am] |
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R.I.P. Josh. You will be missed!
Everything lately is so unbelievably unpredictable, but everything happens for a reason, right?
I hope things get better soon.
I'm against crying.
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| EXTREMELY HAPPY |
[06 Feb 2008|10:19pm] |
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Saturday day was a nice drive down to NOLA. We had a pretty nice hotel room. The first night I know I had a least one large Mardi Gras Madness daiquiri. Met a girl named Sarah and she was fun as hell. So she and I went with Morgan to the Boot to dance instead of going to Bourbon. When we got back I finally finally got my "shower" --it was amazing. Then passed the fuck out. The next morning was more parades. More drinking. Some parts I'm kinda confused on, or everything is out of order. But I know I was on Morgan's shoulders for a parade. And I don't remember walking back to the hotel. That night there were 13 people in one hotel room including a boy that NO ONE knew.... This was a fun and interesting night. Monday we watched Street performers and I drove back to BR. Then got in the car with Morgan and went to Alexandria. It was like home. His momma is amazing. And his nigga's are the shit. It was probably the cutest vacation ever. He said to his boys that I'm perfect and called me his girl. We had to sleep in separate beds but in the morning someone would run across the hall to cuddle. Both mornings he cooked me breakfast. It was completely chill and an experience I will never forget. Hopefully I can go back. He may have to come meet the parents for me to actually use the truth hahah. Momma still has no idea all that I've done this weekend!!!
I have no idea if things are going to get more serious but no matter what these two months have been great. I think there is good hope though!
But now.... It's school time for at least a week. When is my next vacation?
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[31 Jan 2008|08:34am] |
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ReRe talking about relationships hahahahah |
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Staying out till 1 (or later) on a school night drinking and having fun totally gets kicked in the ass when you have to wake up at 5:30 for a 7 o clock class. But I guess it's worth it. However, I think my insomnia is back... is it contagious?
In all actuality, I love how things are going with life. I have a great balance. School is going well. TKE is definitely where I am all the time, but I love those boys, and the fact they do whatever I want! :] And to be completely honest I'm ready for my invited nap time there.
However, boys confuse me, but I'm going with the flow. If things go wrong... Fuck you, fight me, right.....
Also, my weekend Friday-Wednesday is completely unplanned... but I know I'm getting fucked up and not going home the entire time!! HAPPY MARDI GRAS '08!!!
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[21 Jan 2008|02:37am] |
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Why didn't I see that one coming.
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| Baby, seasons change but people don't |
[14 Jan 2008|01:41am] |
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I have very much enjoyed the past two days. I am so happy I feel like I could burst. It's like the break never happened. I really need to gush, but there's no one to listen, which is fine, I guess. I am NOT ready for classes to start.
I love taking naps. Both napping and not really napping :] and I don't really know how it could get much better, but I sure hope it does. I also have a semi-date planned which includes Juno and this cute Pizza place on campus. I can't wait. Gah. I'm going to go read now because I need to go to sleep before school and I'm just too damn happy to pass out now.
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| This is what we cal white knuckle driving, folks.... |
[30 Dec 2007|10:34pm] |
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I'm sick. I feel horrible. Crying kinda makes it better.
I learned how to snowboard, its kinda tough, but I can do it. I'm sleeping in mine and my brother room tonight, alone and its fucking cold in here. I need a hug. I'm beyond ready to come home.
I'm going to be all alone on New Years Eve and not feeling well. I hope something good comes out of this trip because right now its one big regret.
I love you all, give me a call sometime!
Happy New Years everyone
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[26 Dec 2007|02:47pm] |
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Colorado is beautiful.
The plane ride was fun and the clouds looked amazing, I've already taken 40 pictures. Today I went sledding.
I plan on spending a lot of time out side and making it all worth the trip, but I really wish I has SOMEONE here to cuddle with. The cold weather is making me want to be with someone SO damn bad.
My cousins are the perfect children that do nothing wrong. So I won't be having TO much fun lol. But I am going to wrestling practice or at least a duel meet at Mines. (the population is apparently 25% female. So my odds are looking good lol jk.)
I love it here. It's beautiful. I can't wait till we're at the resort so I can snowboard, maybe with a hot instructor lol. :]
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| I'm a big girl i can drink and not make out with anyone lol.... |
[21 Dec 2007|02:14am] |
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I am very much enjoying college and the break from college...
I wish he was back in town but besides that, a girl can still have too much fun lol
call me soon, so we can hang out, yes you, I'm drunk and totally serious.... at least I spelled everything correctly, thanks spell check.
but overall I really really really miss that certain boy and feel stupid but yeah anyway. I'm chill, i love life. call me.
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| You've got this silly way of keeping me on the edge of my seat. |
[15 Dec 2007|02:44am] |
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I've been told "This is the happiest I've ever seen you" and honestly I think they're right.
I go to sleep knowing I've had another amazing day. I don't know how this happened, and honestly I don't care. I deserve this, I deserve to be happy and have someone treat me so great and even without any commitment. Although, I hope that things turn out right.
Studying, Cuddling, Uncle Jack, Raoul's & Papa John's in bed, Movies, CHOCOLATE, Kisses= a very happy me.
If you have a problem with this.... go fuck yourself, have a nice life.
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[12 Dec 2007|02:47pm] |
I had horrible luck my entire first semester of college and now it's FINALLY finals week.
This has been the best week ever. I'm extremely happy. Things couldn't be much better.
I'm ready for the holidays.... Colorado, ALEXANDRIA! and where ever else I end up.
:] you don't even know.
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[17 Nov 2007|02:12pm] |
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Promises Mean Nothing.
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[20 Oct 2007|10:19pm] |
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I hate my life.
I have no best friend. I don't know what to do with myself.
I hate college. I make the worst decisions ever.
I hate crying.
I hate life.
Someone tell me its going to be okay.
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